to me, anxiety is over analysing everything.
every word that leaves your mouth.
every thought that pops into your head.
every action you carry out.
every message you send.
every reply you don’t receive.
every mistake you’ve made.
anxiety has robbed me of who I used to be.
I am a shadow of my former self and I hate it.
I hate that the smallest thing can instil fear in me, can reduce me to tears.
I hate that I am no longer confident in my own abilties, that I constantly doubt myself and my actions.
I hate that I struggle to talk to people because I worry how I come across, that I would rather stay silent than have a conversation because I overthink every reply, or lack of reply I receive.
I hate that how other people view me is at the forefront of my mind, 24/7.
anxiety has made me more empathetic
anxiety may have robbed me of my former self, but I will not let it rob me of who I am becoming.